DBT.

So, I have started this 'DBT' therapy that is a year long group therapy program.

1) I am not sure what I am supposed to get out of it. Yes, I have only been to one session so far. However, I am not sure it is for me.

2) The therapist is Mr. Zen-like master himself. He is so calm and manicured like it is abnormal. His calmness is relaxing, but I really don't know what to take of it. Not only do I have to do this group therapy with him, they made me switch my therapy therapist to him. I don't know. He is not (MMF) the therapist I love and trust and can open up to. With DCJ (Mr. Zen), I haven't figured out how much I trust and can open up to. Right now, I trust JEL (my psychiatrist) more than I trust Mr. Zen. Sheesh....this is all confusing.

1. JEL (psychiatrist - gentle, yet hardcore. Extremely intelligent. Calls you out on your crap, etc.)
2. Mr. Zen (DBT therapist)
3. MMF (old therapist, whom I loved and trusted the most)
4. MF (therapist at day program, who rocks, I trust, she MAKES me discuss and makes me admit dark secrets that she knows before I am ready to admit, she just knows it)
5. Nr. Nippling (also at day program, very funny. Runs the aftercare program now that I 'graduated')

3) this is all over the place. My brain just spins and spins out of control all the time. Maybe I do need DBT.