Dear Melanie Eng.

Let me start with saying, I will not apologize for making this public, nor will I apologize for how I feel.

Second, you two started this fight. You two started the gossiping. You two started the drama and I am over it. I will address both of you separately and these letters are as honest as it gets. You want drama, you want gossip, you want to bring it.....well, it has been brought. I have been brought to the brink of what I can take.

Third, you want to think that Kimiko Mae Christensen Hammari is your little bestie? You want to think she is such a great friend of yours? Well, I can tell you right here, right now on this very public blog of mine that she is in fact NOT. She gossiped just as much about you behind your back as she gossiped about me behind mine. I am not calling her out on her gossiping as a big huge surprise. She knows she has a gossiping issue. She has admitted she has. Ask her if she does.

Oh, just let me tell you what she has said about you....then I will address the gossiping you did about me, then finally, I will address the gossiping I did about you. Like I said, you wanted it brought...it has been brought and gloves are off.

1) Kimiko HATES when you want Katelyn to play with Mayumi. It pisses her off in fact. She said that your bratty (oh yes, she calls Katelyn bratty) makes Mayumi mean and she doesn't like Mayumi to play with Katelyn. She will lie about it, but oh, she has said it many times. MANY MANY times.

2) She constantly gossips about the state of your and Ether Lings marital status and if you guys are actually happy.

3) She constantly gossips about the actual state of your and Katelyn's mental health and if you both need mental health treatment.

You two (technically three with Karen MaReady) started the gossiping and drama when you took it upon yourself to keep me out of MY room and you/Kimiko went through my room and found a 'letter' from Eric that also could never be found again....and funny thing is, I have no idea what is in the letter - I am going off what the two of your told ME. Eric wrote a letter, a post-nuptial letter telling me if I signed it and agreed to HIS terms it would prove to him that I wanted to save the marriage. That part I remember. I signed the letter. Yes, I remember that too. What the letter actually said - what the list contained I do not know, I do not remember. I only knew one thing. At the time of signing it, I wanted to remain married to him. I loved him. Signing it would prove to him I wanted to remain married, so agreeing to 'his' terms seemed like the best and easiest solution. How this letter was never reproduced again after you and kimiko went through my computer is completely mind boggling to me. I remember only a few things of interest that you two mentioned that were in the letter because I was under heavy medication and you two NEVER EVER mentioned the letter again or addressed the issues that arose from you reading it again.
(1) you guys brought up the issue of Doctor's Hospital and why I was under my maiden last name, to which I told you why and had proof of. You two never said anything about it.
(2) you two brought up an issue of Eric addressing a shoplifting incident and I acknowledged it, admitted it. Even under heavy sedation of medication.
(3) Kimiko asked me if my friend Martha really existed because you guys haven't met her. She asked to take the mission lessons and she asked to take them from people I know, but the bishop told me no that she would have to take them from the ward she would technically be assigned to, so Martha wasn't interested. She is like me and doesn't trust people, too bad I didn't listen to my gut and avoid you, her,

Other than that, I remember NOTHING else from that day. You two hid everything else from me. I kept falling asleep because of medications and Karen kept me from my room where you two had a field day going through whatever you wanted.

Now, I am not playing the victim here, I did gossip too. The only person I ever talked to about you to was Kimiko. The same stuff she gossiped about to me was the same stuff I said. Yes, I called Katelyn bratty. Yes, I said that I think Katelyn has some mental thing going on. I said that because of a time you told me she was bawling saying she was ugly/fat. It is NOT normal for a child of her age to have body image problems. It is not normal at all.

Lastly, a friend is a friend is a friend. If you can't handle honesty from a friend (case in point....my emails) then that is YOUR problem...not mine. I called the three of you out on your bullshit of gossiping and you guys couldn't handle it. You couldn't even email back with your 'honesty' because you were afraid of my depression. Well, my depression is my problem. I can handle honesty......what is the funniest to me, Karen the 'lawyer' couldn't. To me, that is the biggest coward of them all.

So, to you, I say fuck off. You know you haven't seen the last of me because your parents are still in the ward. I still know plenty of gossip about you, so you want to continue this battle? I can continue it. Just say the word and it will happen. Trust me I can go there, I can make you feel as low as you guys have made me, oh trust me, I can.